Living Life!!

Gone Wrong!

2009-08-12T21:36:00.000-07:00

He asked me to leave him alone :( and the worst is I cannot do that...and I dont know where I have gone wrong :(

I dont know what to do....I love him and need him more than anything else in the life...but I dont know where I have gone wrong :(

He doesnt speak out whats hurting or troubling him, I know its me but I dont know where I have gone wrong :(

Why is this happening, when I love him and even he has feelings for me, I dont know what went wrong :(

Whatever has gone wrong has to be corrected and undone and he has to come back and we have to start everything together again.

Without him

2009-08-03T09:31:00.000-07:00

Its so depressing without him....I finally wanted to be happy and saw went for shopping and I shopped and actually splurged and bought 3 bottoms and 1 footwear too :) But me was not happy :(

I used to walk into the store, check out stuff try and pay and walk out then enter the next it was all done as if I was sleepwalking through. I even had lunch out and had the food that I loved still I felt him missing.

Specially was the time when I picked up something but wasnt sure about buying it or not....he would have known....

So till the time he is back, me will try to be happy but only with him I can be happy :)

Manic Monday #4

2009-08-02T20:11:00.000-07:00

Play Manic Monday
Would you rather go a week without bathing, but be able to change your clothes, or a week without a change of clothes, but be able to bathe?
well neither is what I would want but if I am forced by circumstances I would rather bathe daily even if I wore the same dress again and again.
If you had to be trapped in a TV show for a month, which show would you choose?
Now me have no clue about it strange it may sound but me out of TV world for the past 4 years and am surviving so dont know which show it would be :(

Different!

2009-08-02T00:37:00.000-07:00

Thats what I am called...I suddenly never realised what it means till he told me he hates my gifts....he says they are stupid and idiotic presents to be given to someone :(...

I react in an unusual way...I am so mean I never knew...

It hurts yes it hurts when you love someone so much and it hurts more when the loved one throws you out...treats you like a useless one :(

In anticipation of a day when he comes back....when life becomes the same as it used to be with him and me cuddling in each others arms....he smiling at me and loving me....liking my gifts...enjoying time spent with each other ....please make it true!

Come Back Dear

2009-08-01T16:50:00.000-07:00

I am tired of these nightmares, tired of everything around...please come back
I wanna sleep again cuddled in your strong and warm hands...please come back
I have had enough of these nightmares, put them to an end...please come back

Unconcious Mutterings!

2009-07-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

I say ... and you think ... ?

Taxman :: Cometh
Material :: Possession
Format :: Changes
File cabinet :: Drawer
Ignore :: Signs
Super! :: Power
Fireproof :: Life
Blockbuster :: Movie
Snooper :: Dog
Good will :: Hunting
You can play it from here...

Now and Forever!

2009-07-31T09:39:00.000-07:00

What I crave for is him to understand me...dont know whats eating him he just doesnt seem to respond to me...I want to tell him:

I love him and I will always do. Now and Forever!

I will wait for him till he is back into my life coz I love him and my love is for Now and Forever!

He will be back soon says my heart!

I wish it will be true!

I love him and I will always do. Now and Forever!

Manic Monday # 3

2009-07-31T05:38:00.000-07:00

Play Manic Monday
What is one thing that you would change about yourself if you could?
I would change my sarcasm and loading other people with my negative energy.
Name three exotic countries you would like to visit:
Wanted to visit Egypt (already done), other remaining are places in Europe and Turkey
What do you think the secret to life is?
Ha me too searching for the same...I think once we know the purpose we are here, we have work to do, we have people to care we are fine.

Another go at Friday Fifteen

2009-07-31T05:30:00.000-07:00

15 Things I Want to do Before I Die

Some of the things may sound weird but I simply wanna do it :D ...I am gonna strike out the ones done and add up new ones :)

...see snow....play in the snow :D
...learn to play a musical instrument
...win any puzzle / quiz contest
~~...go on a cruise / balloon ride~~Now me off to honeymoon cruise
...fly an aeroplane
...drive a train / tram
...travel to all the 7 continents (Asia, Africa....)
...drive a car myself and travel for long distances
...act in a movie on second thoughts would want to act in a play
...do theatre
...publish a book (havent written anything as yet :D)
~~...fall in love :D~~ Already am in and now have to get married to him :)
~~......find my soul mate~~ Yes he is the one :) Now I wanna spend the rest of my life with him
...have a baby girl / boy
...earn loads of money so that I can stay lavishly for the rest of my life

Unconcious Mutterings

2007-12-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

I say ... and you think ... ?

Filthy :: Dirty
Therapist :: Lie and down and close your eyes
Duck :: Quack Quack
Slant :: Slide
Artist :: Paintbrush
Lease :: new life
Wish :: Oh I wish that my wishes were true
Doormat :: thats where the doggie lies
Global :: warming
Apartment :: my home

You can play it from here...

Manic Monday #2

2007-10-08T10:18:00.000-07:00

Manic Monday for October 8, 2007
Which month of the year do you think best describes your personality?
December for the winters when I am under wraps the same way as I keep myself under wrap protected from the harsh cold world!

If you could have had the starring role in an existing movie, which movie would you pick?
A movie, an existing one then none other than Gone with the wind and the role of scarlet.

Are you attracted to people whose personalities are very similar to your personality or very different?
Hmm now this something which I have not noticed much but I guess I get attracted to the people who are different for their different reactions to the things around me arouses the interest to know them more.

Unconcious Mutterings

2007-10-08T10:06:00.000-07:00

Cluster :: group

Announcement :: Ladies and Gentlement please be gentle with the ladies and let them lead you to the nearest shopping mall for a shopping spree

Respect :: when we respect we actually remove the spects

Incident :: an event

Accordion :: musical instrument

Drunk :: Hic hic!!

If :: If only I had done this....

Dexter :: My favorite cartoon series Dexter's Laboratory

Wedding :: Bells, cake...flowers

Gambling :: Getting married is gambling

You can also play here

Manic Monday

2007-10-01T22:54:00.000-07:00

If technology was sufficiently advanced, would you be willing to clone yourself?
Ofcourse I will get my clone to attend classes while I will be catching up on my ZZZZZzzz

At the local grocery store you see an elderly woman shoplift a chicken. Do you tell the management?
Instead of bringing it to the notice of the management first I will try to find out why she is shoplifting and if I can be of any help to her so that she can avoid committing wrong.

If you could be 8 years old again for an entire day, knowing what you know now, how would you spend it?
Wow an 8 year old with a mind of 30 year old...Well with my clone I would pretend to be twins and help the elderly woman shoplift apart from chickens many other items :D After all after 24 hours I will be grown up again and cops would never find me.

Unconscious Mutterings

2007-09-30T01:18:00.000-07:00

I say ... and you think ... ?

Crook :: Cock has eaten a rock
Career :: Car is at the rear
Freckles :: Made up wrinkles
Scramble :: Scare the able
Mistake :: I missed it
Telephone :: Tell the people
Thank you :: Please do not do it again
Obstruction :: Obstruct the motion
24/7 :: Always
SciFi :: Scientific finance

First things that came to my mind...

Friday Fifteen

2007-09-30T00:51:00.000-07:00

15 Things I Want to do Before I Die

Some of the things may sound weird but I simply wanna do it :D

...see snow....play in the snow :D
...learn to play a musical instrument
...win any puzzle / quiz contest
...go on a cruise
...fly an aeroplane
...drive a tram
...travel to all the 7 continents
...drive a car myself and travel for long distances
...act in a movie
...do theatre
...publish a book (havent written anything as yet :D)
...fall in love :D
...find my soul mate
...have a baby girl
...earn loads of money so that I can stay lavishly for the rest of my life

I love reading but I dont have time to read?

2007-09-26T07:50:00.000-07:00

If you really love to read then you will definitely find a way to take out time to read. You normally don't get time to do many things but you can take out time to do things that you love to.

I will share with you some tips on how can you take out time to read. Here are a few of them -

A suggestion - If you are starting to get into the habit of reading begin with books which have short stories. Leave the novels and the thrillers and the others for a time when you are really in a position to devote longer hours to reading.

Leave aside a fixed time which you decide to spend reading. Say a minimum of 20 minutes per day to start with. Try and stick to whatever time you have chosen.

Now spend maybe a few minutes after bath reading. I know you are in a hurry and you have just taken a rushed bath but you can take out time to pray then why not do something you love. Take out time to read just a few pages. Maybe read the book while eating your salad. Or maybe cut down on your television watching to read the book. Take out 5 minutes off your viewing hour and devote it to reading. Read it while your kids are playing in the park and you are keeping a watch on them. In between keep glancing at the kids to see how they are doing. Just before you go off to bed, read a few pages, if you can. You find out for yourself when you can read.

Carry that book with you - read it when you are waiting for your bus / cab. If you are the few lucky who don't suffer from motion sickness then read the book while travelling. And if you suffer, then read the book when the vehicle has stopped at traffic signals / stops. And if you are the driver then wait till you reach the destination to read the book.

Just go with the flow and take out time to do something that you love to do. Start living Life!!

Welcome!!

2007-09-25T19:40:00.000-07:00

Hello people, I didnt know what to write in my posts everyday because I dont speak much. But since I started my blog I thought I will pen down all those things that I think - The random thoughts that keep coming over and over again and simply fading away. But when I am thinking I am not writing my blog and when I am writing I dont remember any of the thoughts.

I thought I will share my epilepsy, how I am coping with it, and how am I living my life. But somehow everytime I sit and write, I keep straining to recall how I am coping with it. For actually I am not coping with it. I am simply living and enjoying life. People around me would be surprised to know even that I actually suffer from it. Picture this -

I put up on my own. I have rented an apartment and own practically all necessary items of furniture and kitchen appliances. Friends visit and stay at my place. So there is room for all and I have guests too. Only that my family and relatives dont drop in because they are opposed to my staying on my own and if they come they will actually endorse my staying on my own - which they dont want to. Anyways I am happy that I am able to manage myself.

I do take proper medications everyday. I have to ensure that my diet is proper and try to cook proper meals. I also rest have that much required sleep. I dont try to exert myself or overdo on anything. I have a maid who helps me with washing and cleaning chores. She is an angel. I guess that all ensures that I can stay on without much trouble.

When I was leaving my place, my mom was apprehensive that what would happen to me. But then I convinced her that even if in your presence something happens then what can you do? If I am crossing the road then what will you do? Somethings are to be left to themselves. Instead of hitting it and trying to figure if it happens then....

Phew!! I never knew I could write so much!!